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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, MITSUHIDE AKECHI. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 011.27.954.55 *** USER has joined 011.27.954.55 <AUTOMATIC RESPONSE, DO NOT RETURN> Yes? Yes. This is our channel. Him and me. Who are you looking for? Perhaps a third face? :) No, no. Probably not. Okay. I will wait. I humbly apologize. That was confusing, was it not? That man and me share this channel. It would be draining otherwise. If you are in need of Tenkai, please let me know. If you are calling him, I wonder if that is wise? Hahaha. | ||||
[ poor Shootie has to learn what it is to live with this lunatic ]
By the by, when can he come to visit?
Also, also... I have some business with a spider. Can I go visit him for a few days? I made a big fuss about him. I hope you can forgive that a little.
[he is trying so very hard]
Only if I get to be with you.
The entire time.
If you need to have a private word, well, I'll stay outside the door, but I'll be with you at all times otherwise.
[ you can do it, shootie! ]
That is a bad idea.
Very bad idea.
That is a person I wanted to escape to see!
I worry that you'll see a side of me that you won't like.
One filled with ... romantic thoughts. [ As in, he greatly romanticizes how much he wants to rip AM's insides out, but he does love AM very much. This is just how he shows it sometimes. ]
[1/2; but can he really]
I put up a fight, but I wound up lying on the ground with it over me. It tore my throat.
My favourite hoodie too.
Listen. You're still treating me like an innocent child that needs to be protected. Save that for the actually innocent and for another world than this. The things you want me to learn... this is neither the time, nor the place.
Protecting me is coddling me. Do you understand? I kept the company of harbinger of death and shipwrecks back home, I assure you nothing you do will shock me.
[2/2; wish I could say I was making up the part about the vaguely masochistic partner, but I'm not]
I get the feeling you're using "romantic" as a cover for something else.
... is this Kira and hands kind of romantic...?
Well. I suppose you DO sound like the type. You kind of remind me of one of my partners, he was a little too happy to be whipped even after the Attract wore off...
Anyway, if it's something like THAT, I'll just. Go take a walk or read a book and pick you up later?
[Congratulations, Mitsuhide, he's now under the impression you've got some kind of weird, fetish-y fixations too and have some sort of plans with this "spider" and might just give you guys privacy based on that confusion.
Are you okay with this?]
[ 1/2 i mean... i mean... maybe?? ]
It doesn't matter the place.
Do not be so quick to see the abyss that lies in the hearts of those that gave up their humanity.
It's a sight that cannot be taken back.
If I thought that it didn't matter to show you such an image, if I did, I would worry for myself.
I don't want to shock you. Not at all.
Anyway, anyway, anyway.
Do you want me to kill the person that killed you?
[2/2 oh pokemon ]
What's the word?
It's far more visceral.
Yes, far more visceral than how Kira loves.
Yes, please, that's fine.
That's very fine.
[ Shootie says not to protect him, but Mitsuhide feels like he must even if the child says "no." If protecting him means that Shootie must view him as a person with fetish fixations and other such oddities ... then that is fine. He would not want to put the person that wished to protect him in danger.
So yes, it's okay, it's okay... it's okay if he's seen as less and less of a person if it means that someone that showed kindness to him is far away from dangerous situations. ]
[1/2]
I hate lies.
I don't want to be helpless because I know the world is cruel. That's why I have to be too. It's my nature too, so even if you kept me vulnerable and weak, it wouldn't make me soft or kind or good, not the way children are. I don't think I'm like them at all.
I'm not.
This isn't right for me to say, no, it's definitely foolish, but I want to trust you too. Maybe it doesn't have to happen all at once, maybe there are some things I should hold onto for longer, but, if it could keep me safe, don't worry about shocking me. Rather, I give you full permission to shock me, because I trust you. It's better if it's you than someone else, right?
[... Shootie, you're supposed to be keeping an eye on him.
He's a bit shocked by his own honesty there too, but it's sent before he can fix it. But he did just admit to trusting him, yes.]
[2/2; his trust is hard to earn /and yet,/ despite the misunderstanding...]
[The truth is, he can't remember who did it. He blocked it out. But the fact that his mind did that, must have meant the truth was pretty shocking... maybe it was someone he knew. At any rate, he didn't want Mitsuhide taking revenge.]
Alright.
... can we stop talking about this?
[Given what he's come to understand of it, describing it as visceral was far too unsettling. Gross. No, he didn't want to dwell on that thought at all.]
Just tell me where you need to go, when to take you there and when I can pick you up, okay?
[1/2]
His smile soft. It is kindness to allow a monster like him out of the cage set up. It is good to buy a house so that they have somewhere to live. It is softness to believe a monster would always be willing to answer all questions. Shootie does have all the pieces, but he does not see them in himself. Unfortunate.
It makes him want to look after him more.
It isn't lies or being lied to -- why is it that those that he wants to watch over have been watched over with clumsy hands and clumsy intentions? Why is it that a person like him is able to see these things? Humans are interesting, he thinks to himself. Humans are very interesting and that is why I love them. ]
[2/2 ... GASP TRUSTING? ]
What hour?
I'll tell you all that and more when you're awake.
I'm sorry my hours are so strange.
I'm sorry for them.
I'll try to make them more set to your own, Shootie.