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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, MITSUHIDE AKECHI. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 011.27.954.55 *** USER has joined 011.27.954.55 <AUTOMATIC RESPONSE, DO NOT RETURN> Yes? Yes. This is our channel. Him and me. Who are you looking for? Perhaps a third face? :) No, no. Probably not. Okay. I will wait. I humbly apologize. That was confusing, was it not? That man and me share this channel. It would be draining otherwise. If you are in need of Tenkai, please let me know. If you are calling him, I wonder if that is wise? Hahaha. | ||||
[2/2 oh pokemon ]
What's the word?
It's far more visceral.
Yes, far more visceral than how Kira loves.
Yes, please, that's fine.
That's very fine.
[ Shootie says not to protect him, but Mitsuhide feels like he must even if the child says "no." If protecting him means that Shootie must view him as a person with fetish fixations and other such oddities ... then that is fine. He would not want to put the person that wished to protect him in danger.
So yes, it's okay, it's okay... it's okay if he's seen as less and less of a person if it means that someone that showed kindness to him is far away from dangerous situations. ]
[1/2]
I hate lies.
I don't want to be helpless because I know the world is cruel. That's why I have to be too. It's my nature too, so even if you kept me vulnerable and weak, it wouldn't make me soft or kind or good, not the way children are. I don't think I'm like them at all.
I'm not.
This isn't right for me to say, no, it's definitely foolish, but I want to trust you too. Maybe it doesn't have to happen all at once, maybe there are some things I should hold onto for longer, but, if it could keep me safe, don't worry about shocking me. Rather, I give you full permission to shock me, because I trust you. It's better if it's you than someone else, right?
[... Shootie, you're supposed to be keeping an eye on him.
He's a bit shocked by his own honesty there too, but it's sent before he can fix it. But he did just admit to trusting him, yes.]
[2/2; his trust is hard to earn /and yet,/ despite the misunderstanding...]
[The truth is, he can't remember who did it. He blocked it out. But the fact that his mind did that, must have meant the truth was pretty shocking... maybe it was someone he knew. At any rate, he didn't want Mitsuhide taking revenge.]
Alright.
... can we stop talking about this?
[Given what he's come to understand of it, describing it as visceral was far too unsettling. Gross. No, he didn't want to dwell on that thought at all.]
Just tell me where you need to go, when to take you there and when I can pick you up, okay?
[1/2]
His smile soft. It is kindness to allow a monster like him out of the cage set up. It is good to buy a house so that they have somewhere to live. It is softness to believe a monster would always be willing to answer all questions. Shootie does have all the pieces, but he does not see them in himself. Unfortunate.
It makes him want to look after him more.
It isn't lies or being lied to -- why is it that those that he wants to watch over have been watched over with clumsy hands and clumsy intentions? Why is it that a person like him is able to see these things? Humans are interesting, he thinks to himself. Humans are very interesting and that is why I love them. ]
[2/2 ... GASP TRUSTING? ]
What hour?
I'll tell you all that and more when you're awake.
I'm sorry my hours are so strange.
I'm sorry for them.
I'll try to make them more set to your own, Shootie.