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Yes? Yes, yes. [ He frowns, mildly confused. Humans are so endearing that he cannot help but find them to be cute. And cats are equally endearing creatures -- ah, he wonders if he could get a few to climb on his antlers, again. So a humanoid cat that breathes and smells of death and the slaughtering fields is so endearing to him that he cannot stand it. If he could, he would be flush with excitement at being close to something that could kill him so easily.

A giggle bursts out before he once more nods that he shouldn't use the word "cute" anymore. ]

But he looked so happy to play. [ His argument for anything, really. Everyone should be basing what they do on if it is fun or not fun. Why anyone would do something not based on that criteria is a real mystery to him. ]

And you have small bursts of joy rather than always happy. So why not do something fun? If I could play an instrument, I could but all I can play is the melody known as indiscriminate slaughter. [ And he starts to laugh. ]

Besides! I remember when you had that pretty young woman cut your nails after you killed her boyfriend! That made you so happy, too. Or satisfied? I enjoyed feeling those feelings and soaking in thd horror. So let's fill up your entire day with things that are satisfying! [ He lifts his cup up before lightly clicking it against Kira's. ]

The young me you saw was not me. And yes, I imagine playing the violin at first was a great deal of fun. Thus the boy's enjoyment. And it was something we originally wanted to do. But it quickly became something unpleasant when ample amounts of pressure was placed on my shoulders.

I had to play perfectly. And I had to be shown off. Something fun became a burden. So I did badly so everyone would leave me alone. I honestly can't imagine finding any enjoyment out of it now.

[There's always a chance but he's not willing to make any kind of attempt. Even if a violin was placed in his hands he still wouldn't play.]

You saw that memory...?

[His brain was completely ransacked...] They were being very rude on the train and then insulted me as we were leaving. So... I did the only thing I could. I followed them home and murdered them. That was during a time when I had to avoid killing in order to stay hidden. I made a mistake... It was satisfying but it ended up costing me my life. That wasn't my last kill but that was my last relationship... Shinobu, not included of course.

[ He takes a second to frown. Well, he is the one that said that Kira should live his life based on what is fun and what isn't fun -- if not playing is fun, then not playing it is. Mitsuhide still really enjoyed how that innocent boy made the violin scream such a beautiful sound. But it seems he will have to hold onto that precious memory as that is all that he will get. ]

I see, I see... it is as Kira says then.

[ There still may be a brief second when he sticks out his tongue at the idea but he giggles to himself after. ] That's right! I had that memory for quite some time! It was like it was my own memory. Even though they weren't my feelings, I felt all that you felt! I first thought that maybe I did something that I wasn't supposed to do, but it was nice to feel you feeling so happy! Infectious even! Like a horrible flesh-eating disease!

I loved it! [ He felt it important to clarify that he enjoyed it a lot. Before pausing and making a very soft "hm" sound. ] Still... I'm sorry that it cost you your life. But if the events that eventually lead to our demise must happen, let us hope that they are enjoyable ones! There are those whose missteps are not so enjoyable, Kira. Not so enjoyable at all...

[ A quiet moment that he fills with a sip of the coffee. He makes a happy sound over how nice it tastes, then immediately changes subject: ]

Shinobu? Did she die as pretty as Minako? What a nice name... what a nice name... what did you do with her, then? [ A spark of excitement to hear about this one's death. ]

It is.

[Still... Mitsuhide having his memories and feeling all those intense feelings is rather concerning. But that was probably one of the better memories to hold. It was particularly gruesome and a very desperate if not somewaht depraved action on his part.

He enjoyed that blissful moment despite all the trouble and eventual death it caused.]

I do agree though. Be happy even if the next moment might be your last... or something like that, I suppose. That seems like a near impossible thing to ask for though.

[Kira takes a sip of his coffee, cutting the enjoyment of the liquid short at the mention of Shinobu.

So many people have heard this woman's name by now he forgets that Mitsuhide, of all people, does not know who she is.]

Shinobu did not die... Shinobu is my wife. [...Kira...] Sort of.

I think I also saw you kill Jotaro. But that memory is kind of fuzzy for me? I just was overjoyed to know that the people that I like are happily murdering one another.

[ He looks down at the cup and frowns that it is already half-gone. It's delicious -- he should attempt to savor it a little more, right? Small sips, then! Much, much smaller sips. ]

Everyone thinks that it is impossible to be happy all the time, but it's just stop doing what is making you unhappy and do something else. [ His ears perk up as his tail wags, swinging once more into the side of the chair. ] But Kira is much smarter than me, so you'll be able to think of a better way to do things.

[ There isn't so much of a spit-take as he freezes as he holds the cup. His mouth opens for a second as he is about to bring up all the girlfriends that Kira has but he closes his mouth. Suddenly, he's seeing him in a way different light. Kira... killed those women so that he would not kill his wife? How romantic. To do everything to keep the one that you love safe, even if it means bringing misfortune and death to others... what a wonderful husband Kira is.

Scooting his chair closer, he leans in as he holds the cup tight. ]

Is that so? Is that so? Tell me more about her, if you please.

Edited 2017-04-01 06:52 (UTC)

[Killing Jotaro... He... He never did that? He gently places a clawed finger to his lips trying to recall. The shoe store? Only Sheer Heart Attack was there for that. And he didn't kill Jotaro then.

Oh. Bites the Dust!]

It seems you have a memory that I do not. Killer Queen had a very special and complicated power regarding time. When my name was said those that heard it would be blown up by Killer Queen. Time would then rewind and then proceed and those people would automatically die with no idea to why that is. The drawback is that I do not remember the rewound time. Killer Queen does, but it's not mine anymore. I must have killed Jotaro but stopped Bites the Dust before he could die permanently.

A grave misstep on my part... Did it look good? Did you enjoy watching him fall to pieces? I can think of few more deserving of such a fate.

He pauses before taking another sip of his coffee, eyeing the wendigo scooting a tad closer. You can never be sure what Mitsuhide might do. Nothing violent, of course, but he's not really looking to be touched.]

Well... [Now you've done it Kira Yoshikage.] There's not much to say. She was a lovely woman. A redhead who could cook. She was very... hm, loving. [He cannot do this. It's just too much.] I have mislead this conversation a tad. I murdered her actual husband and took his face... and that is why, she is my wife. Though it's nothing official. But I think it's safe to say that I accidentally saved her marriage by just being there and existing. It was very strange... but not wholly unpleasant, so I decided much later.

That's... awe-inspiring, Kira. There are few in my world that can actually command time. [ But he cannot help but think that is also a strange way to do things. He supposes that because Kira isn't killing them himself but they're dying on their own, it doesn't affect his life. He lifts his chin as he makes a small sound under his breath -- yes, that must be it. ]

It did look good! His eye [ He lifts his hand to place it over his one good eye. ] was all shimmering in color. There wasn't anything that he could do but stand there. I must say that I'm disappointed in him as I would have liked to have seen him fight and struggle more! More and more and more!

[ Another giggle. ] Then the cracks of the explosion ripple through his face before it -- [ He lifts his hands to flick his fingers against his thumb to make the explosion gesture. ] It's sad you don't have the memory! I like remembering all the people I kill even if I can't remember the exact number anymore!

[ His ears lift up. ] Oh. [ Mitsuhide takes a second to process that information. His head tilts as he looks at Kira as his tail gives small wags, swinging slow like a pendulum. He feels his eyes refocus as he realizes that the face that Kira used -- the one that he reacted so badly toward -- is the face that was married. Interesting! ]

Does that mean that you were happy being married, Kira? No, content being married? You sound like you rather liked her... is that not right?

Oh, I imagine it's a rare thing. I thought it was a lucky ability, not without it's faults. I wish I could remember what happened in the time loops but there's nothing for it now.

[He's never seen what Bites The Dust's bombs do and how they kill. It's nice to hear it now, even if he didn't succeed he can picture their cracking faces and charred bodies so perfectly.]

It seems like you would. I don't hold onto such things. I don't remember the names of the girls and I don't remember how they died. It's unimportant information to me. The constant present is all that matters to me.

[That question though...] I suppose... I did not mind it as much as I thought I would. I sometimes wonder what I would have done if I'd come out on top. If I'd killed them all and won. What would I do with her?

I don't know. But sometimes I think, that maybe, I could have been very happy.

But it doesn't really matter, does it Mitsuhide? I am dead in Morioh. And she is not. Worse still, I am here and this is a place she should never come to. If the Fog Witch plucks her from Morioh I will burn all of Dyster to the ground.

You are lucky not to remember. Your mind starts to feel stretched and heavy. [ He lifts his hands to slowly flex his fingers over his head. ] Ashikaga... is our shogan. He decided that we needed to fight and ignite the fire in us all.

All timelines... all those memories... they came flowing into me. Things I had done, things I hadn't done. To make us strong and show us what we are capable of. [ A beat. ] So I think it is a lucky ability. It means you are able to know what did and didn't happen. What is and isn't the reality of your time.

I suppose that is why you value the present while I value all the memories of blood... [ A giggle. He thinks Kira would have been able to handle the rebirth of the warring times better than Mitsuhide. He thinks Kira would dismiss the many, many timelines that come to exist in the goblin's mind and focus only on the present without getting confused or discouraged.

But he pauses at hearing that Kira would burn an entire town for Shinobu. He gives a bemused sort of look as he feels that means that Kira did like her a lot. He thinks that if everyone died that Kira would have been happy with her -- have a moment of happiness that lasted more than a moment. ]

After you burned everything, after... would you tell her about yourself? You took her husband's face but you could meet her with your real face... would you speak to her and meet her honestly? [ Because it seems to Mitsuhide that Kira would not want Shinobu to think badly of him. And is that not the definition of loving someone? To always be seen as one's best?

Still... for someone drowning in timelines and memories that were and not his, he thinks on what-ifs. And wonders for someone who thinks on the constant present will indulge him on a what-if. ]

[Not unusual but always a tad bit baffling, Mitsuhide makes a solid point. Its disappointing not to be able to remember the missing time. But it's also a good thing. He doesn't want to know how close to victory he was and all the things he could and should have done.

The past is past and he cannot fix it nor bring himself back to life. And mulling over it all won't do him any good. He'll never live a peaceful life that way. So he simply offers Mitsuhide a soft hum and sips his coffee without question.

The topic of Shinobu is difficult. He always hesitates bringing her up too much because he hates the Fog God and the Fog God hates him. And it wouldn't benefit him or make him happy if she were here.

She would be hurt and suffer and worse... worse than anything is that before he'd even be able to get close to her the likes of Kishibe Rohan and Kujo Jotaro would snatch her up and tell her everything. No... No, if she were here he would not go near her. He would pretend he didn't even know her.

That is the best way to combat all the twisting and unwanted withering feelings inside of him.]

No. [He gives a slight shake of the head.] I do not wish to see her again. I am not Kawajiri Kosaku and that's all there is to it.

[You can still be fond of someone from a great distance. And you can still burn down a city for their injustices. He's quite sure of it.]

Sometimes, Kira says sad things and I'm not sure what to say in return.

[ He turns the cup in his hands to look down in it. Ah, almost empty. A little giggle chases after the thought as he realizes that there is still enough to enjoy one last drink. It's a shame that Kira cannot see things the same way, but that's just Kira, isn't it?

What little of the real world that he sees through his madness, he sees Kira as someone with miserable luck. Whether that is the goblin's fault or not, Mitsuhide can't say. Indeed, sometimes it is the personalities of others that make getting along difficult -- so no one is really at fault. His eyes shift to the side, looking up at Killer Queen. Ah, I feel I thought something clever just now. And he giggles into his cup.

But he would like Kira to have met this person honestly. To speak honestly about one's vicious nature, it means no one feels upset and betrayed later. To meet everyone with a wide and true smile, it means the world will eventually smile back even as the skies rain fire and chaos spreads through everyone's heart. Yet somehow he thinks his philosophy of life and how to live is one that will lead to a quiet and peaceful life. ]

But you don't think that it's sad. [ He finally says aloud. ] These are just facts and how the world is for you. But still... I have a selfish wish for you! I have a very selfish wish. I would like you to see the world in a much more crazy manner, rather than in facts. Perhaps, you shall find more lasting happiness that way.

[ A bright laugh before he sets the cup down. ] I'm tired... but I took up enough of Kira's time, right? You just revived. You should go rest and try not to sleep an entire month again.

[He offers Mitsuhide a faint smile unable to say anything in return. They may be sad things but they are also true. And it's a waste of time and energy wishing they were not. Sometimes there is simply nothing to be done. Ah! And Mitsuhide repeats that very sentiment.

The wendigo has learned to understand him quite well in some regards. To be understood and to have someone see eye to eye with him... It's very nice and honestly something he has always wanted.]

Is that how you see the world? I think I am much too human to see things the way you do. What you're suggesting goes against my entire ideal way of living. I have lived on the edge of insanity and stress and seen the world, momentarily, in a haze of madness and I did not enjoy it. That is not for me, Mitsuhide.

But I will strive to be happier.

[That's something he wants too, after all.]

Ah... Stop by again sometime. Since you live a bit closer we shall be seeing much more of each other I imagine. [Mitsuhide, has come to learn, is a fine presence to have around. In small doses, of course.] I don't intend to sleep or die anytime soon so you needn't worry.

That is why I hold great affection for you, though. [ He offers a bright smile -- distorted due to the crushed portion of his face. But the cup is set down as he pushes himself up to stand. ] Your humanity. You're so very human~ So, please don't think of yourself as less.

[ But that was last year and many months ago. He giggles to himself as he realizes that the concept of time holds very little to him. Something that feels ages ago for others sometimes feels like days for him. Something that feels so current and close to the surface to some is such a distant memory that he's already forgotten it. ] Well, striving to be happier is all that I hope for! All that I hope for!

[ He takes a step back and spins on a hoof before bowing -- nearly slamming his forehead into the surface of the table and completely losing balance all together due to how unsteady he is on his feet. ] Indeed, we shall see each other! Indeed, we shall! It'll be nice to come visit. [ Make sure that Kira is still alive, too. ]

Well, then, well, then... I'm glad I stayed in Bavan. Now for the walk home. Yes, it shall be an enjoyable experience. [ He says with swaying and staggering steps. His tail gives another wag. ] Bye-bye, Kira. And good-day to you, Killer Queen. Lovely to meet you! Lovely, indeed. You are much -- [ Mitsuhide leans forward a little as he tries to think of a word that isn't "endearing" or "cute." ] -- much. Okay!

[ A burst of hysterical laughter as he sways toward the door. Shame that he could not convince Kira to play the violin. A great shame. But he got a cup of coffee and got to see Killer Queen. Furthermore, Kira admitted to striving for happiness which Mitsuhide can only mean good things! So, he'll call it a partially-victorious visit. Partially-victorious in still seeking out a good and proper future for Kira! ]

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