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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, MITSUHIDE AKECHI. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 011.27.954.55 *** USER has joined 011.27.954.55 <AUTOMATIC RESPONSE, DO NOT RETURN> Yes? Yes. This is our channel. Him and me. Who are you looking for? Perhaps a third face? :) No, no. Probably not. Okay. I will wait. I humbly apologize. That was confusing, was it not? That man and me share this channel. It would be draining otherwise. If you are in need of Tenkai, please let me know. If you are calling him, I wonder if that is wise? Hahaha. | ||||
<ghostprince> [I'm cryin', I typed like half this stuff up before seeing the Kira stuff...]
You are... scared?
Mitsuhide-san, is this not what you wanted?
Nobody has ever let you off?
[This is difficult to reconcile and he is disturbed he's somehow managed to frighten Mitsuhide or do something even his very cruel lord hasn't...]
Do you prefer being given targets? I have some names.
... but the source is— questionable.
[Kira.]
Maybe you should... wait some more then, if you can't act immediately.
[This child is in no position to give orders in the capacity that he is.]
< mitsuhide > (lmfao!! sorry shootie)
But that is before everyone is sounding like himself. That is before he realizes what it means to be let off of what leash he has. Nobunaga would say indiscriminate killing, yes, but specify an area and then pull him back if he does too much. Nobunaga kept his eyes on him and he felt like he could enjoy himself to the highest degree without fearing he would lose himself.
He gets to scared when no one's eyes is watching him.
Being told to kill this person or that person -- that is nicer. It means that someone is watching him closely. Everyone is starting to sound like him. Everyone is starting to sound drunk on blood. He didn't realize that he would be frightened for everyone. He didn't realize it at all. It's a surprise. A horrible, awful surprise!
And Shootie. Shootie said he would attempt to not become someone "evil" and walk a path that is worse than his own. His eyes close. Shootie didn't understand what it means for him to be let off his leash. Shootie said it simply because he didn't know what it meant and because he wants to end things violently and red. That will happen. That would happen. But the cost of it would be Mitsuhide's sense of security of himself, right?
It isn't pride that would keep him safe in battles. It really isn't self preservation. It isn't any of those things. But he knows more than anyone else how fragile he is. He giggles to himself but keeps his eyes closed. Shootie needs to learn a lesson about all this. To respect the strength and protection that has been given by the wendigo. To respect the strength that the harpy has for himself. To return to something softer.
Meeting someone in battle is one thing, it is one thing. It doesn't matter the age of the person, if they are meeting a person in battle, that is one thing. But the younger ones have to be able to smile and love themselves after the battle. That is what he has come to understand. Shootie will say everything he has done was "right," but if he looks at his actions, can he say that he loves himself for them? That he can smile happily and say he did what he did for the happiness of others? Isn't that what the young should think of first? To be cruel is not to be an adult.
A child could easily pull the wings off a butterfly.
His eyes open as he decides that he won't tell Shootie he is leaving. No. "Tough love" is best in this situation -- and he does still very much love Shootie. But he cannot protect Shootie from himself. ]
I understand.
I will act.
I will act.